Wednesday, 20 May 2009
past few days,my mum and i had a little chat.
she told me that her heart is feeling very pain.
she told me that she went to see a doctor and the doctor told her she might be having heart dieases.
besides her heart problems,she do have some others as well too.
like for example:-her leg problem.her hand problem.
like every where she got problem and i know why..
its due to her VERY VERY OVERLOADING WORKLOAD AND BURDEN!
today i reached home.she did not notice me.
so i decided to scare her.SUCCESS!
but she told me later she die of heart attack,dun cry.
as she said that it was her time to go and she will be breaking free of all things &burden she had been having all this years.
she will be carefree and without worries or troubles.
flashbacks..memories of the past came back to me.
i saw how i treated her in the past.
i saw how i scolded her in the past.
i saw how she protected me when my dad tried to hit me.
i saw how she spoke up for me when i was being bullied.
i saw how patient she is when it comes to teaching me many things.
i saw how she always back me up when i'm in trouble.
i saw how she single-handedly guide the four of us up as my father was working,he did not have time to guide us.
i saw how she take the four of us out just by using ONE BICYCLE!
i saw how because of my mum,our family is very well-known and popular in the neighbourhood at that time.
i saw how she anxiously trying to find me when i was lost.looked everywhere,asking all people around.
i saw how she was,sometimes,being hit by my father whenever my father came back home after work,losing his temper and i did not do anything.
i saw how she went out to work.
i saw how she worked all day long,without resting,and still making sure that the four of us are being taken good care of.
i saw how she worked more than 3 jobs at a time just to provide us with what we need.
i saw how she was hospitalise serveral times because of sickness and broke down due to overloading of workload and burden..
i saw how she manage to stand strong in front of the four of us when everything went wrong for her.
she has always been behind me all this while.
she has always love me and dote me all this while.
she is sucha lovely mother.
BUT,now,when she dunno something.she asked me.
i dunno but i got fed-up whenever she asked me things.
i was so impatient without realising how patient she was teaching me when i was young.
instead of teaching her,i shouted at her.
i'm just one unfilial son.
i've got so much to say about her.
so much that not any phrase,sentence or 2,3 words can replace.
this are photos of my mum and some along with me.
thats my mum,i've always been proud of.
no one can ever replace you in my heart.NO ONE!
thats my mum..my beautiful cute mum.
Mum,i love you.
妈妈,我爱你!
Utterly Speechless ♥ <33
written at : 00:31
written at : 00:31
Monday, 18 May 2009
Saturday night went out with o2 of my brothers and one of their friend.
we went for a drink and only then i realise that i don't like to drink or smoke.
i just smoke and drink for the sake of smoking and drinking.
no any particular reasons.
Sunday,whole day ,i stayed at home and slept throughout.
woke up and studied for physic,for awhile then went back to sleep.
woke up again to eat and bath all this..used lappy awhile.
after that ShuHao msg me ask me to prepare,which i already prepared.LOL
thanks for the reminder.=)
went back to revise physic and i did not notice the time!awww..shit!
i quickly send the msg (hoping that i'm not too late!)hahhas..
after that went to sleep.
Today i was browsing through my childhood and saw some of my photos
i was like...OMGOSH!!!do i really looked like that in the past?haha!
here are the photos..hope i will find back some of them and we will have some reunion outing or something.haha
&lastly,i saw your beautiful smile again =)
Utterly Speechless ♥ <33
written at : 19:33
written at : 19:33
Saturday, 16 May 2009
right now i don't even know how many papers i had left with.
geography paper was halfway done,to be exact halfway through Question 2c and did not attempt last Question,before the time is up.
math paper 1 was quite unexpectedly easy due to the math paper 2 which was so damn freaking hard laaaaaa!!
English paper 2 was quite confusing as i kept on stuck one question after another,did not manage to complete my summary.ended up handing in draft for summary.LOL
today i heard one of my friend saying you're pretty.
here the conversation that i could remember,should be like that.
Friend A said:
"ehh see the second girl in front of YanTing,chio right"
Friend B said:
"haha.you want you go jio lor.haha"ROFL!my mood was spoiled.but still,have to do my chemistry paper.
chemistry paper was quite easy,i did not study for it.i just ran through the paper with my basic knowledge and if i pass,its just pure luck.=)
I'm seriously in love with you.
Girl,you're just that attractive.aren't you?=)
Utterly Speechless ♥ <33
written at : 00:38
written at : 00:38
Tuesday, 12 May 2009
hmm...went out with brother and goodfriend..shared alot of things.
its been along time since i met them..but we went home at 4+ .
hmm..slept,woke up at 7..rush to bath,wore my uniform,shoes and rush to school.
first paper is chinese paper 1,easy i can say..
hmm..next up was math paper 2,DAMN FREAKING HARD!!!!!(for some questions only)
and i din have enough time to finish it!damn it..
left alot of blanks,din manage to even touch on some questions...
but one thing i find it funny because when the teacher said "times up!"
i looked up and saw MANY PEOPLE continue to do!mostly express people!
they were like rushing through the paper!!!hahaha...some slept without even trying..lol..
well tml no school.
thursday is geo and math paper 1
my hope of getting 10 points will never come.
now i only wish for 20..
got 20 i already 南无阿弥陀佛..
that is AMITABHA
Utterly Speechless ♥ <33
written at : 23:08
written at : 23:08
Sunday, 10 May 2009
you haven't been online for like a month?i've been guessing why..
& i tot you might be appearing offline or blocking me or just never use com and online?...
yeah..guess people are right?loving someone can't last over a long period of time..
right now its exam period and i kept thinking of you during exam..
maybe because you sat near where i sit?which i shldn't..
as i will let my friends down..
as its exam period now,so....
right now you're no longer in my mind
because..........
i've proved people wrong!!!
you will always be in my heart =)
&i'm crazy about you.
Utterly Speechless ♥ <33
written at : 23:34
written at : 23:34
Saturday, 9 May 2009
argghhhhhh!!damn angry man..i actually studied the wrong thing for SS!!
lucky i did some last min study in the morning.lol..hopefully can pass uhh..
ohh and chinese!!!i left the whole passage B BLANK!!!!!!!!!!
20+ marks lidat gone..still say that i would get 10points..for Olvl..damn
look at my result and i'm..........arggghhhhh
I KNOW THE MEANING OF DOUCHEBAG ALREADY!!!!HAHAH
[edit] NounSingular
douchebag
Plural
douchebags
douchebag (plural douchebags)
(US, slang) A jerk; a mean or rude person.
(US, slang) An idiot, a dim-witted person.
(US, slang) An individual who has an over-inflated sense of self worth, compounded by a low level of intelligence, behaving ridiculously in front of colleagues with no sense of how moronic he appears.
That dude is a douchebag.
That douchebag ruined my shrimp cocktail.
Why doesn't that guy get a job? He's a regular douchebag.
ohh suddenly i've wanna eat pastamania..lol
i've seen you smile once again..=)
Utterly Speechless ♥ <33
written at : 00:13
written at : 00:13
Thursday, 7 May 2009
ahhh..shit,i'm done for it..
if its base on my result for eng paper 1,i'm gna fail.
all because i did not really pay attention during english lesson..
regret man!&i only have a total of 5 subjects..
english down,4 more to go?
tml its social studies and chinese paper 2..
i can't afford to lose this battle..i can't afford to fail my other subject..
ohhohh!!she sat near to where i'm sitting..LOL
after exam also saw her at batok mac.=)
Utterly Speechless ♥ <33
written at : 21:05
written at : 21:05
Wednesday, 6 May 2009
omg MYE starts tml already..time flies..
the battle of my future lies with the first paper..
the battle starts tml and i'm not gna lose this..
i've lost alot of things already.
Time,relationships,friendships,brotherships &kinships.
many many different things...
can i really do what my brothers had said to me?
can i really do it?
everytime i see you,i can't bring myself to step in front and talk with you.
Utterly Speechless ♥ <33
written at : 23:31
written at : 23:31